OMG...I need serious help. WTF am I doing? I meet up with JC last night for dinner. We ended up going to Coyote Joe's and hanging out. Needless to say, I ended up sleeping with him. I don't understand what is going on with me. I've never been this wreckless before in my life. All of a sudden, I'm doing things I never thought I would do. Having one night stands, getting so drunk I don't remember shit. It's not good and more importantly it's not me. I don't understand why I am doing these things.
I'm slowly self destructing...maybe the feelings I was having before NYE was the calm before the storm.
